nitamac
07-11-2008, 12:23 AM
It's me, ya' cell bound folks trying to find a voice that'll be heard from behind these prison walls.
Daily I struggle with the concept of what being a man is…Is being a man someone who refuses to back down from a fight? Or using your fists to get your point across? Can I use my intelligence to progress into something strong and worth while? It's difficult to choose a path that'll lead to a successful life.
Especially when the life you lead is one that's surrounded by murderous convicts. Where it's eat or be eaten. An accomplishment is making it through the day with your throat still intact. I keep my eye's open and my back to the wall. When you are in here, it's nothing to see someone's head get kicked in.
I can tell you this…This is not what I'd envisioned my future to be. It's hard to find a place to fit in at inside these walls. You try to keep your spirits up, but it's seems there is always something or someone waiting around the corner to kill that spirit you hold on to.
FYI…
That glamorous lifestyle of being a gangster isn't all that it's cut out to be. I think I bit off more than I could chew. I pray that those who have children pay close attention to them. There is a fine line between the streets and the class-room, and which one grabs a hold first depends a lot on your skills as a parent. I've been in and out of the system since I was a freshman in high school my mom did not know about gangs. But once the streets grabbed a hold of me they never let go. Don't turn a blind eye on signs of trouble even though it might seem easier. We must stay on our toes in order to raise boys into responsible men and girls into responsible woman. It's the small things that need to be looked at in order to save another youngster from the streets. There is no such thing as a perfect parent but we can all strive to be. I say all this because what I go through everyday, and I wouldn't wish this upon my worst enemy.
Life is meant to be spent with those you love and care for, looking forward to Christmas and family reunions. Not canteen and a quarterly package or when well you get another visit from the ones you love.
I'm still struggling with the whole being a man concept, but I know for sure being a man doesn't in tale waking up in a cell with the door locked.
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Out!
Daily I struggle with the concept of what being a man is…Is being a man someone who refuses to back down from a fight? Or using your fists to get your point across? Can I use my intelligence to progress into something strong and worth while? It's difficult to choose a path that'll lead to a successful life.
Especially when the life you lead is one that's surrounded by murderous convicts. Where it's eat or be eaten. An accomplishment is making it through the day with your throat still intact. I keep my eye's open and my back to the wall. When you are in here, it's nothing to see someone's head get kicked in.
I can tell you this…This is not what I'd envisioned my future to be. It's hard to find a place to fit in at inside these walls. You try to keep your spirits up, but it's seems there is always something or someone waiting around the corner to kill that spirit you hold on to.
FYI…
That glamorous lifestyle of being a gangster isn't all that it's cut out to be. I think I bit off more than I could chew. I pray that those who have children pay close attention to them. There is a fine line between the streets and the class-room, and which one grabs a hold first depends a lot on your skills as a parent. I've been in and out of the system since I was a freshman in high school my mom did not know about gangs. But once the streets grabbed a hold of me they never let go. Don't turn a blind eye on signs of trouble even though it might seem easier. We must stay on our toes in order to raise boys into responsible men and girls into responsible woman. It's the small things that need to be looked at in order to save another youngster from the streets. There is no such thing as a perfect parent but we can all strive to be. I say all this because what I go through everyday, and I wouldn't wish this upon my worst enemy.
Life is meant to be spent with those you love and care for, looking forward to Christmas and family reunions. Not canteen and a quarterly package or when well you get another visit from the ones you love.
I'm still struggling with the whole being a man concept, but I know for sure being a man doesn't in tale waking up in a cell with the door locked.
.. ..
Out!